WHAT THE F IS WRONG WITH ME?

 A self-realization.

I don’t really understand myself. I don’t know myself... enough. I continuously discover things about myself that I'm not even aware of. I'm pretty self-aware, yet it seems I'm not aware of who I really am. I've hated myself for the things I do so selflessly. Why did I make that? Why did I do those things? Why am I like that? What the hell is wrong with me? There are times when I do things without even giving myself permission, if that makes sense. Despite being aware, all I can do is judge myself like a game proctor or something. I cringe a lot. I've searched the internet for possible mental illnesses, but it only made it worse. Apparently, according to Google, I have all of them. Am I stupid? Maybe. I don’t know. I don’t want to be like this forever. I want to fix myself, but all I can do is watch myself. Watch myself ruin my self. I am aware that I'm selfless.

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